I am a born again christian, and i make sure that i attend weekly services in our church (Cathedral of Praise) and not until the term has started i think twice lang ako nakapag simba. There are times in my life na my relationship with God has its high and low points.
There are moments na maganda ang relationship ko with God, i make sure i pray everyday and i read the bible and there are also times that you get to preoccupied/busy with other things that u forget about your relationship with the Lord.
Madaming beses nang nasubukan ang faith ko kay God. The biggest trial i had so far happened last year when i was diagnosed with typhoid fever. nakuha ko siya sa isang kinain ko and i got sick for almost a month and it was only 2 weeks later na nalaman na i was carrying that disease. I was hospitalized for a week, breakfast ko ang bloodtests every morning, nilalamig ako or i get chills every morning and even prior to being confined sa hospital, i lost so much weight and i lost some blood,my white blood cell dropped to something 9? if im right i think the normal was 143? i dont know correct me if im wrong. the doctors even said na i get blood transfusion but its not safe these days so instead i was asked to take medicines para tumaas. i filed a leave of absence for 3 weeks in order to rest and get back the weight ive lost.
my faith was really tested that time, everyday and everynight lage ako nagdadasal for God to heal me because there is no impossible in prayer, everything is possible with God. my mom would usually pray with me. that time sa hospital there was one kid na nakasabay ko and he died because of the same condition. my mom said it was a miracle that happened to me because God listend and answered our prayers. i can say that im on my second life and i thank God for the healing he granted into my life. without my faith in God i dont think gagaling ako agad.
probably the next biggest trial that i faced is what is happening to me now. i am on my last term and things are not going well as "planned" or as expected. i am on the "verge" of failing one subject not because i did not do well in that class, its because of my prof, sobrang OC sobrang segurista she wants every detail up to the small ones revised. come deadline we were not able to comply with all her revisions so we had to take risk, the risk was to present the project to the panel but with no assurance of passing. we had to take the risk kasi last term na namin and i promised my parents na its going to be the last term. this time my life has been put to the test, my faith has been put to the test.
since the term started ive been praying to God na ito ung desire ng puso ko sa ngayon, apart from having a good and a better relationship with Him, i wana finish and graduate this term. ive been praying so hard and i know God is listening to me and granting my prayers. the pressures kept on piling up, sobra na akong kinakabahan but i asked God for a favor and i am confident that i am going to pass kasi i know that with Him nothing is impossible and i know that He will never leave me as what the bible says. God will not give me a test/challenge i cannot take or do but i needed some help so i texted my pastor, pastora jenny and asked for prayer in response she sent me a message telling me to read this verse:
"But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach and it will be given to him." James 1:8
so there, just what i needed, after reading the verse the feeling was different.i was more calm and relaxed and wala na ung kaba na nararamdaman ko. lage kong binabasa ang verse na yan after the pastor asked me read it and i always claim in my prayers that i will pass and make it to graduation because i know that God is there and helping me and giving me guidance and all the wisdom i need for my studies.
i know that my efforts will pay off.
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